The Why

Why am I a sugar baby?

Because I'm greedy and self obsessed? Spoiled and lacking thought? Because I'm already rich and want more? Because I don't want to work?

No, no, no, no, no, no, and no.

None of those things.

I do it, like so many, out of need. But, that's not to say I'm forced or can't enjoy it.

I come from an abusive family that left me with nothing. I need to pay for my education. No bank will loan to a 20 year old without a co-signer. And I'm frankly not stupid enough to take a loan from a bank anyway.

I have some health problems resulting from cancer. I was treated in high school. I'm fine now. Just aftereffects and such. I also have no health insurance. So it's important for me to secure a nice future. One I wont have to worry about.

My dreams are to go to college, study a couple in demand languages I already pretty much know from my own studies, and major in International Business. Then get my MBA from somewhere notable enough to give me job opportunities. Languages are my passion. I would love to use them everyday. -Then, after finding the perfect husband, I honestly just want to be a wife and a mother. Being a housewife and raising a family is my biggest dream. Sucks that it has to be so hard to get it.

School, rent, food, bills, would never be covered by a minimum age job. Or, two like I had before with one making two dollars above minimum age. If I went on that way, I would NEVER crawl out of the hole.

And so I need a pretty quick way to make a lot of money.

And I do have morals so that crosses out a lot of things, let me tell you. XD

I just want what everyone else wants. A chance to live a normal happy life.

This is my way of playing catch-up from my parents neglect simply.

But whatever brought me to this shouldn't matter. I am here. I don't know if I would still be here if my life was different. But I am happy to be here. Because it's an interesting world. Exciting. Risky. And fun.

And ends to a means doesn't have to be just that.

And the only person I need to answer to is myself.

My oaths to myself as a sugarbaby:

1. I will never do anything I don't enjoy because that would be lying to myself or to someone else, and I'm not comfortable with that. Sugar is stressful enough without hating what you're doing or who you're with. So I promise to only enjoy myself. 
2. I promise to never make up a fake personality. To do so would be to insult myself. 
3. I promise to go with my gut at all times. 
4. I promise not to sell my soul to money. And not to lose sight of my end goal. Education is my reason for this. As well as independence.  
5. I promise to give this my all as to not regret it later. 

This is probably not an enjoyably post. I'm aware. But, I'm sure I would have gotten the question.

None of these things define me.

They are not who I am.